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Empathy
03:41
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if it's two years since i've seen you, i apologize for leaving
for not grieving, disappointing you, with reason
but i swear i did the best with what i had
if you call me with a cell phone from a bridge when you are seething
desperation in your breathing, open wounds, unfinished feelings
is it my fault, what you have done?
if i've moved on, have i done wrong?
if you forgive me, will you leave me alone?
you know i don't expect an understanding
resolute in your meandering, speaking up to hear yourself
but don't you guilt my heart with your heartache.
you know even on a great day i can hardly break free from the blankets that shelter me
and i know you are sad
the way we are all sad
i know that you are lost
and that you think i am your home
but i cannot take care of myself
what would ever make you believe i could care for somebody else?
is it my fault, what you have done?
if i've moved on, have i done wrong?
if you forgive me, will you leave me alone?
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3am
04:07
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i'm biking by your house at 3am
i told myself i wouldn't, but i am
i know i should be trying to be a man
but i'm too busy trying to think of the saddest thing i can
like, it's probably warm in there
clean pillows and your freshly shampooed hair
goddamn it's been an awful year
i can't believe that i'm still here
holy shit, i really thought i would die
and i've fucked up every thing i've tried
and you're probably warm in there
with your new person, and their new hands in your hair
i'm lying in the grass at 3am
i don't know what i'm waiting for or where i am
i've no direction, i have no plan
but i can't think of a single reason that i should stand
so i'm watching these clouds blow by the moon
and i'm trying, or i'm trying not, to think of you
i can't give up on loving you
but that's exactly what you want me to do
i wanna be the one who's loving you
but you don't want me and there's nothing i can do
goddamn this is an awful year
i can't believe that i'm still here
and holy shit, i really wanted to die
but i've fucked up every time i've tried
and you're probably warm in there
with your new person in the bed we used to share
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3. |
Never
02:24
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i told you that i would never leave
and what i told you, i believed
who knew you could be wrong
about your own heart?
how was i to know you weren't the whole
but just a small part?
i am in awe of how hard i must fight
to hold on to a feeling for more than a night
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4. |
Surrender To You
03:20
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hold back
i can't say what i wanna say
and i know that
but i rehearse it anyway
every day, as i wake, when i shower, when i shave
i rewrite, i rephrase, i rethink what i'd say
and what i'd say is:
"i know you.
you don't believe in love.
but i'll show you.
this isn't what you're thinking of.
this is something new.
and lord knows i was skeptical, too.
my head tells me this can't be true.
it's a lustful impulse gone askew.
but my heart's been fighting hard for you,
and i can see its point of view.
but with all the feelings i've been through,
there's nothing honest i can do,
but surrender to you.
and then you do whatever feels right to you.
kiss my face and let me comfort you.
or slap it hard and bruise me black and blue.
either way i give this self to you.
and i'm sorry if you didn't want me to,
but i surrender to you."
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5. |
This Fool
04:30
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there is no way out of this town
i've followed every train track and road that i've found
and they circle round and round
i'm trapped in this body
sad, captive, and sorry
i want to get out and i wanna find the end
and sever my ties to the people i've been
and live a righteous life
or give a selfless love
or do whatever a good person does
to end up in heaven above
you put your faith into this fool
gave him a thousand second chances to start new
but every time he comes back
saying he would never do that
with a thousand selfish reasons
for the thousand selfish ways
i will hurt you
you know that people can't be trusted to be good
why would you lie and say that you believed they could?
so you know that i could be the guy
who loves you every day until you die
but i am probably just somebody who will make you cry
it's more than likely that i might be just a waste of time
my bones are scarred from things that i've done wrong
and you will learn to hate my face in time
and everything that we will ever do
is everything that we have ever done
and everything that i will ever say
i'll say with this song:
that, what i wanted for you and me
and what happened to you and me
are two very different things
and that difference is the reason every singer sings
and where does that leave me?
hoping no one will ever see
how worthless i am
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The Sarcastic Dharma Society Portland, Oregon
Mat Vuksinich has been making music under the name The Sarcastic Dharma Society, both by himself and with the help of others, since 2003. They can be found writing, recording, and regularly performing in the rainy city of Portland, Oregon.
The Sarcastic Dharma Society recommends:
Hop Along is amazing, they're a huge inspiration for this band, and if you haven't already gotten their album "Get Disowned", you probably should.
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The Ocean Floor, particularly on this record, is heartbreaking, beautiful, adorable, smart as fuck music for people who like falling love while watching stars and sunrises and sesame street.
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